Wednesday, January 16, 2013
My Dad is somewhere in the middle of his treatments and he has completely lost his voice and most of the ability to eat anything solid. The skin on his neck is showing signs of burning from the radiation, but we knew all this was going to happen. He has lost some weight and I have to keep after him to eat since all he wants to do is drink Ensure 4 times a day. I can see it in his color and his weight that this is taking a toll and it worries me since I don't think he's strong enough to fight anything off should he get sick or more worn out than he already is. And even though he is doing as well as expected, it's difficult to sit and watch him be miserable. I was never worried about the cancer doing him in since it was treatable, but it was the malnutrition that I've worried about from the start. I'm trying to not be selfish about it, but if something happens to him, logistically my world will change drastically. As a result, I am in limbo with any kind of decision I have to make until we see what the next month brings.